alanis letter: night before marathon run

hey there
night before marathon run...so excited and nervous. sleep will be an interesting challenge tonight :)
i have been praying and meditating throughout the afternoon
so grateful to so many people for the support that i have received around this run that i am doing on behalf of the national eating disorder association....
it's been a gift to use my body for something bigger than the ego-me...
to offer the training and the run itself up to all people on this planet who have had a fraught relationship with themselves, their bodies, their souls, their emotions, their place in this funny world, their food, their relationships....
i see so much as a microcosm....how i drive, how i eat, how i work....is how i LIVE.
all my values and beliefs are imbued into how i do what i do each day.
to notice when i persevere, when i buckle, when i ignore my heart, when i kick ass, when i am gentle....whether it's when i have been training for this, or how i am in a meeting, on a phone call, out at a party....
bringing this kind of awareness to this time and this cause has been one of the great chapters of my life
it's returned me to that wild-eyed jock girl i was when i was young...
alive and energetic and bouncing off the walls...the great combo of masculine and feminine....
finessing the art of figuring out when to push and when to rest...this process has forced me to grow up! love it

to the people at NEDA
to you, who contributed to this cause through this site
to my friends who have rallied around and buoyed my runs and blisters and reframing of all things athletic (Food, sleep, massage etc)
to the people i am running with (my brother wade, my friends tim and leah)...


thank you to you each
and i send love, formally, to the people whose hearts and bodies i/we are running on behalf of.
you are not alone.
and there is a way out.
i love you.